a life spent
loosing myself
in two
long-term attachments
giving daily
affection
attention
dedication
education
endlessly
when i changed
caring for animals
instead of eating them
i gained morality
but lost mutuality
respectability
useability
abandoned
called an idealist
extremist
selfish
unaccomplished
suffering deeply
weeping bitterly
seeking eagerly
but warily
remaining alone
rediscovering myself
and nature
determined
to be with someone
similar
or not at all
longing
to give myself
remaining
loveless
hopeless
dreamless
aimless
lacking resources
an offer to help
dispeled the darkness
someone similar
cared
a beautiful goddess
younger
but much wiser
appeared
was it too late
am i too old
to be loved
empty heart
be still
a mere mortal
cannot seek the divine
