The Hearing I

Your mom filed for an emergency hearing
She said in the declaration
That I smoke marijuana
And curse around you
That I am unable to take of you

This is claimed
For a father
Who helped delivered you
Who spent all of your first 2 years
At home with you
Who bathed and oiled you
Everyday
And who spent many nights
Up all night
Soothing you
Through teething
And illness

We were so close
Father and son
A wonderful pair
Inseparable

But that is all over now
She's stole you away from me
Since I cursed her on Monday
And I haven't seen you
For 4 days now
The longest we've been away
From each other

She filed court papers
Asking for full physical and legal custody
And to prevent me from seeing you
Until a court hearing
A month from now
And thereafter
For supervised visitation only
A few hours a week
To be granted to me

This means that
We would no longer
Be going for walks on the beach
Hikes in the mountains
Or watch Diego
At daddy's new home

It looked pretty grim

But the judge was nice today
He asked if I have a medical marijuana card
I do
Then he ordered
No smoking 12 hours
Prior to visitation
Or during visitation
And sent us back to mediation
To try to work out a visitation schedule

Meanwhile
Everything remains the same
I still get to see you
3 days a week
Unsupervised
Yea

Where's the beach?
Let's go my love
Let's go say hi to mother
No, not that one
The universal mother
Your real mother
The sea

curses

I cursed your mom
And for that
She is taking me to court
And preventing me from seeing you

I cursed her
Because she refuses
To let me see you more

Now I see you 3 days a week
From 2pm to 8pm
Right at your nap time
And it is hard for you to nap
Just when you see daddy

So I end up driving for hours
Just to get you to sleep
Or let you go without a nap
And have you fussy all the time
We are together

I have am not working
For 3 months now
And each day I beg your mom
To let see you more
More early
More often
From 10am to 6pm
Everyday

She refuses
She said that I set the schedule
Which I did
When I was working full time
But I have not worked for 3 months
And still she refuses to let me see you more

Why

Because her lawyer told her not to
It has to do with money
The less time I spend with you
The more money I have to pay her
For child and spousal support
So we don't get to see each other
Because of her greed
And lust for money
She only cares about money
Not your health
Or happiness

Soon it will be daylight savings
Which means we only have
2 hours of sunlight
Before dark
During which time
You have to nap
This is upfair
For us both

So I finally got mad
And cursed her
Demanding to see you more
And earlier
Before your nap time
Yes I did curse
I did it for you

So we can spend more time
Together
Outdoors
Hiking
Going to the beach
Enjoying the fresh air
And curing your allergies

Instead of suffering in smog
in endless conflict
with greedy people
with endless thoughts

the sea

the sea
our eternal mother
so beautiful
and powerful
beyond imagination

we came from the sea
and crawled unto land
many years ago
still
we are mostly water
and so never really left
the mother

moist surf
cooling on a hot day
cold current
shocking at first
is soon irresistible
soft sand
massages
with every step

perhaps the best
is sunset
each one
unique
indescribably beautiful
spreading across ocean and sky
lasting for hours

with the evening star
luna comes
shining her magic
upon the vast darkness
glittering far into the horizon

but the end
of a beautiful day
signals the start
of an equally beautiful night...



with each divorce
comes the dreaded move
out of the family residence
an unwanted change for most dads

you should live
where you've always wanted to
to be happy and enjoy life
then change is welcomed
and time spent with your child
can be quality time
for you
and for them
time spent having fun
rather than missing mom
enjoying the clean, fresh air
watching the sea
ending sorrow
ending thought