overcast morning
summer flowers
cool breeze
holiday sunday
blissfully alone
life endless
calmly
observing
timelessly
a dove sits
on her eggs
in her nest
above the mailbox
a window into eternity
creation
evolution
can i live
each moment
without
a single expectation
thought captivates itself
at each moment
perpetuating its self-delusion
of relevance
necessity
fervently ignoring the moment
present
actuality
reality
igniting fear
insecurity
confusion
and endless desire
to escape
its own madness
through pleasure
lust
greed
power
projecting future
regurgitating past
glorifying ego
over and over
moment to moment
endlessly
in less than 300 years
a concentration of thought
and power
into patriarchy
ideology
technological capacity
creates another mass extinction
global warming
economic depression
increased pollution
decreasing resources
water conflicts
oil wars and oil spills
gulf of mexico dies
toxic vaccines
deforestation
genetically modified crops
factory farming of animals
animal experiments
and looking at all this
what is my responsibility
as a human
adult
father
how do i help my child
to have a better future
is money and family
all that is required
in court again
unwillingly
dragged back
by jad's mom petition
demanding
full legal custody
reduced visitation time
and a gag order
forbidding discussions
with my child
about our divorce
and 14 years of relationship
expecting nothing
staying in the moment
observing
being acutely aware
of global responsibility
i may
or may not
gain insight
into right livelihood
and right relationship
with my child
earth
humanity
