feels like heaven

all through my wandering years
i always said i was biding my time
all alone in the dark i'd face my fears
that no other heart would come to mine
at first when you found me
it took me a while 'till i realized
why i felt weak when you were around me
why i couldn't speak when i looked in your eyes
all this time i've been searching
until you, i was lost in my dreams
and i never knew that love could feel like heaven
watching over me
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it was a cool, crisp day
sun - warm, soothing
wind – chilly, refreshing
it reminded me of a fall day
in the northeast usa

the atmosphere was extraordinarily clear
in a city long known for its smog
the surrounding mountains
in the east and north
were clearly visible
layers of hills
topped off by snow capped peaks
far away in the background

it’s the holiday season
neighboring houses are ablaze in lights
displaying holiday spirit
glad tidings and good cheer
it should be like this all year
but then again maybe not
it wouldn’t have that special holiday feeling anymore
too much of a good thing is bad…

our lord is growing
changing daily
there only in name
because his holiness is never the same

so hard to pin down
the sun
never sits still long enough
to give anyone a chance to figure him out
always on the go
boundless energy
that increases with activity
as do the buddha’s delight

our savior is talking seven or more steps now
before the young master comes crashing down
mostly on the royal butt
the chosen one is really good at this
also at using the holy hands
to prevent our lord’s head from hitting the ground
still mother’s favorite child hits his head several times a day
which causes jad's mother much concern

its so interesting
watching our lord
literally evolving
before my very eyes
a slithering worm at birth
moving up the evolutionary ladder
so rapidly
accomplishing gains
in days
rather than in millions of years

the young master comes equipped
with an incredibly powerful cpu
and equally powerful combination of
software and hardware
both capable of learning
and evolving all the time

in two months our savior
gained control
over complex sets of muscles
in the neck, back and hands
and at ten months
his holiness is gaining control
over complex skeletal coordination
and balance
to perform
bi-pedal motion

what an amazing transformation
done with incredible zeal
day by day
inevitably
the chosen one
grows into a human being
master of the known universe

if there was one trait
that one could give one’s child
what would it be?

i would choose compassion
compassion
for the less fortunate
creatures all
great and small
earth, wind and water
sun, moon and sky

these are the important things
to cherish in life
cherishing life itself

not fame, fortune or glory
which are hard to come by
and don't last

my dear son
has grown attached
and suffers its pain
i see in him myself
caught in remembrance
trapped in desire
buried in escape

imprisoned
nonetheless
my lord is much more alive than i
more in the moment
aware of his surroundings
unburdened by guilt or shame
free from conditioning
by family, relatives, friends
community and nation
free from religion and fear
free from economic necessity
free to pursue play
and in play
ending thought