motherhood

ego is based
on our experiences
our upbringing
our parents

our particular patterns
of thought
values
customs
morals
relationships
are copied largely
from our patterns

we are not unique
nor are our parents

our thought patterns
and so-called "unique" ideas
on how to live our life
are thousands of years old
shared by millions

all of us
in conflict

no pattern of thought
religion
lifestyle
or opinion
has of yet
caused thought
to cease its conflict

regardless of how
we chose to live our life
good or bad
right or wrong
selfish or "unselfish"
rich or poor
healthy or destructive
we live in conflict
with our self
and each other

we live in our thoughts
and rarely notice
that we even do this

too busy always
to see
the flowers
and beauty of life
we pass each moment
of our dull day



the affirmation of motherhood
is more important for women
than it is for fathers

as rulers of the world
for thousands of years
male egos are affirmed
every second
every day

facing daily oppression
a mother' s ego
gains a tremendous boost
with successful childbirth

lacking meaning
direction
freedom
from conflict
inside and out
she immerses herself
completely
into the child

each mother develops
plans
for herself
for her children

ideas
based on
what they had
what they lost
what they want
what they can be
now
and in the future

they don't want to look back
years later and say
life could have been better
if i had done this or that

decisive action is taken
evasive action is accomplished
fear-driven action is maintained

in circumventing
fatherhood
mothers reinforce their own egos
and self-fulling prophecy
that fathers are unreliable

in a world
devoid of community
which was older women's
last vestige of power
and living within
individualized societies
where only young women are valued
and even so
worth not much more
than a pack of disposable condoms

in such a world
in order to maintain
self-esteem
and a re-incarnated ego
as mother
women are compelled
to throw daddy out
with the bathwater
in order to make room
for their own ideas
to affirm their role
as indispensable
thoughtful
caregiver

fathers
the thoughtless bastards
who perpetuate male dominance
get what they deserve
and are free
to oppress other women

the cycle
of conflict
of thought
continues