another day sick
home from school
you called around 9:00 am
i returned your call at 10:15 am
"why you take so long, daddy"
"can you come get me"
i promise to be there in an hour
i get there at noon
you are eager and a bit upset
you march out the door
relieved to be leaving, finally
i have to pee really bad
i beg her to use her bathroom
giving her a painting in return
but she is upset
"you smell of pot"
i am such a fool
i thought things were getting better
between your parents
that after 6 months of overnights together
she would lose her fears
and become less judgmental
understanding that they were unfounded all along
but i was wrong
her megalomania was just in remission
i should have just grabbed you and left
i'm sorry i disappointed you, son
i know that you are being hurt
and scarred for life
it's the problem i have
having a weak bladder
destroyed by medication
i had to use the bathroom
and so i pissed our day away
as i stood there over the bowl
she took you and locked you in the room
without a shred of evidence
that i was incapable of taking good care of you
as i usually do
your crying and pleading didn't help
i regret having any faith in humans
i will never think anyone can change again
your mother is completely programmed
and corrupt beyond repair
she acts as a sponge
for all the garbage society spreads
from loving "legal" drugs and vaccines
and hating "illegal" drugs and users
to killing and eating animals daily
and living in a selfish bubble of self-righteousness
and like all the other of society's imbeciles
she will not and can never change
son
if you want to be smart and independent
to live an ethical life
care for the world rather than yourself
use pot to care and heal yourself
physically and mentally
instead of serving as big pharma's guinea pig
be warned
you will be considered a villain
hounded for simply existing
and be continuously dehumanized
by those closest to you
imbeciles who only care about one thing
how to exploit everything they can
to promote themselves
to get more money
taking vaccines and pharmaceuticals
eating meat
getting sick, diabetes and heart disease
this is normal
being vegan
taking a natural drug
to ease stress and relieve tensions
meditate and care for others
this is self-destructive
you will never convince her otherwise
her self-worth is based on feeling superior to others
and where can she finds such easy targets
to feel superior to
by turning on the tv
and turning off her mind
even if the enemy is very familiar
one she lived with for 14 years
or gave birth to
you are being raised by an empty shell
filled by all of society prejudices
take care you don't become the same
for like her
you'll blindly harm your own children
all along thinking you're doing them a favor
