the ants are back
all over the kitchen
bathroom
everywhere
there is no one
to talk to
to listen to
to walk with
who would understand
i am alone
and this computer
is the only friend
and home
it all started two days ago
during saturday visitation
son told cousin zee
he was at his favorite place
dad's home
then later he told dad
he cries to sleep
missing dad
every night
it didn't affect dad until sunday
when the child left
tears for the first time
in a long time
two days later
next daddy day
child sick with allergies
dad helpless
wanting fresh air at the beach
child wanting radiator springs
at dad's home
allergies got worse
and jad was asleep
by the time he got dropped off
so innocent in the rare view mirror
dad missing him already
we go with just 4 hours visitation
in 4 days!
too little time
for any child
and dad
tears are endless again
i miss my son
i wish i didn't feel so sad
