gotta find time to blog
there are a lot of feelings of course
regret
sadness
loneliness
denial
anger
and a whole bunch of others
most of the times
i am in a state of denial
busying myself with work
it is too much to bear
if i wallow in the reality
of my child's absence
i don't feel bad
as much for myself
as i feel for the child
being without a father
of course it affects them
a world
that encourages women
to freely divorce
a child
from its father
is a world
with no hope
for the future
it is tragic
when someone drives off a cliff
but what if that person
knew beforehand
that the road was dangerous
especially when wet
and they saw lightening
heard thunder
felt heavy rain
was warned many times
but they chose to drove ahead anyway
hoping that closing the sun roof
would keep her passengers safe
it is still tragic
the car sailing off the cliff
or does it show someone caught in ego
pursuit of perfection
incapable of admitting error
feeling superior
imagine a world
where each child
is born
with the gift
of enjoying life
of being happy
living without sorrow
and so capable of becoming
the next
siddhartha
jesus
mohammed
but is instead
driven off a cliff
early on
each time
in such a world
there is no hope
for the future
humans will not last long
it's all just thought
thankfully
the dinosaurs had small brains
which explains their longevity
humans are proving
the failure of the evolutionary model
based on expanding the brain
and capacity for thought
while it may produce wonderful technology
at an extremely rapid pace
it also expands the capacity
for irrationality
and since there is no turn-off switch
the organism and species
are both trapped
in misery
in endless thought
