i feel so helpless
watching the bombings
in gaza
hundreds of women and children
innocently killed
the world watches
and does nothing
as a dominant state
commits murder
in the name of peace
but due to local politics
another election war
am i responsible
for any of this
is supporting one side
akin to supporting the conflict
am i as violent as killers
on both sides
thought will never accept
its utter brutality
how can it
thought is completely immoral
in thought's quest for continuity
all of its fears and desires
are mutually satisfying
violence
sex
god
security
fame
are all the same
my sense of outrage
against the gaza violence
is another aspect of thought
there's no escape
i'm trapped in thought
the best course of action
is to remain upset at myself
for the violence
that i am
and limit my blaming
others for violence
the same violence
that lies right under my skin
i am responsible
for supporting thought's project
and for its resultant violence
i am thought
i am conflict
i am violent
