azul, verde and rojo
flowers in bloom
hot summer day
cool off shore breeze
sunset over the mountains
dead bird on the beach
torn between two sides
jad is learning self-hate
"daddy, you are a bad man"
"you are not good"
"is mommy going to run away today?"
so much turmoil
for one so young
and if the family war wasn't enough
he's tossed out of the house
forced into church-run daycare
three days a week, all day
8 am to 6 pm
with male predators lurking around
spending more time with strangers
than with his own daddy
emotionally deteriorating
he takes it out on everyone
jad is the school bully
and i am prevented from visiting
to find out who he fights with
and why
today we crossed paths
after i dropped jad off at the house
heading to the police station
to get a copy of a police report
she was going to the library next door
and claimed i was stalking her
she ran inside the station to make a report
she had all of their ears
bored, they liked listening to her sorrows
she flirts with the men
they allow her to file a domestic violence case
and they report me for creating a disturbance
at the police station
the disturbance was her asking
to file a case against me
i never said a word to her
i was there to pay for a report
which i then learned
they had declined to file
of her abandoning the child at 7:00pm
one night the previous week
after leaving us outside for three hours
she ran out of the house
into a friend's awaiting car
speeding off from a screaming child
rather than satisfy her custodial duties
trying to force me to do overnights
but now claiming she was scared of me
why didn't she call the police then
every time i pick up my son now
she threatens to call the police
every time
but that night she couldn't?
gearing up to go to court again
she's changed her tune on overnights now
her new story is
"i am not going to allow overnights"
"you need to have a separate room for him"
"you are an unfit father"
all this conflict
due to "maternal love"
playing with fire daily
burning the child in the process
continually making attempts
to end paternal relationship
the final solution
of selfish gendered minds
who can't stand a child's innocence
questioning their hateful existence
daily
they may succeed
after birth
daddy's are an expendable commodity
how much mothers changed
before the birth
she was obsessed with languages
and wanted him to learn four or five languages
and planned all these different activities
she had him learning to sign at two months
but then the divorce came at two years
now all he learns is curses
police and court language
poor child
already trapped in thought at three
never had a chance to be any different
and maybe losing daddy
