baby's back

midnight blue...

it was warm and sunny today.
me and mom picked oranges
from the huge tree in the backyard
they were really ripe and sweet
the guava tree in front is in full bloom
with hundreds of beautiful red flowers
surrounded by four, pearl white petals
birds visit all day to eat the sweet petals

i still have a cough
but for the first time in a week
i was holding baby today

i feel so complete with him in my arms
as if this is all i was meant to do
no worries or anxiety cross the mind
just satisfaction and fulfillment

we are all limited as humans.
we suffer as a result of our indulgences.
even though we know better
we choose to ignore the truth.
we choose to pursue limitless pleasure
knowing full well that there will be consequences to bear.
pleasure is always followed by pain.
drinking, smoking, overeating
leads to poor health and quality of life,
recklessness, infidelity, and lust
leads to guilt and broken homes
jealousy, greed and selfishness
leads to insecurity, anxiety and fear

we get carried away by thought
which is the basis of all desire
if we had no thought
would there be any desire?
thought is desire
to end the endless pursuit of desire
thought must come to an end