the good and the bad

tell me why i don't like mondays?

there was a big, bright full moon last night
then it was cloudy and grey this morning
the dew casted a spell over the morning commute
and even though the roads were clear
everyone seemed to be driving at a slower pace today
delaying the inevitable...
back to work monday

who really enjoys working
day in and day out
week after week
month after month
year after year?

i hate to work
the endless pressure to improve
the stressful deadlines to meet
the personality conflicts and turf wars
sapping all my energy
with the better part of my life wasted
only a sadist would choose this kind of life!

but i don't have a choice
there is a family to feed
and bills to pay
so i am forced to work
or am i?

i wish that i can find a job that i love
then i will love to work
in the meantime i feel stuck
working just to get by
from check to check
bill to bill

i don't even know what it is i like to do
there are so many choices
but i feel that i have no choice
and am working out of fear
and so i fear work

working does have its moments
but these are few and far apart
and not worth all the stress

how much do i really need
how much is enough
when will i be able to stop?

it seems that the more i accumulate
the more longer it will take for me to have enough
how can this be?

can i end fear now
can i be satisfied with what i have now
can i stop and explore what i might love to do now?

is not having enough the problem
or is the fear of not having enough the problem?
fear is thought
for fear to end, thought must end.